The Best one Yet!!!

Alex just showed me the coolest thing ever.
This site is so awesome, I mean it is so funny I am sure I wet my self, I just have not stopped laughing yet.
The site has so many things to watch, It is a nice place to laugh your stress away.

The Hottest!!!

I have just a few favorite X-Men, Those being Rogue, Jean Grey , and Emma Frost. I don’t know what it is about the idea of telepathic abilities that fascinates me, I guess I have always Loved the idea of knowing why people do the things they do and feel the why they feel and I guess it would be easier to understand those things if you had telepathic abilities. I love Rogue because she can be any thing she wants to be and she had a thing for Gambit. And she is hot.
Oh, and I have always loved the chic’s.

My Rock is Not So Hard.

Sometimes I wish I could just live under a rock. I mean, what is the point of life, and the purpose to live if your entire life will be to struggle, and work and get no where no matter how hard you try? Some people would then say to me (and have) ‘then you are not trying hard enough’.
I want to know why it is that giving up is a bad thing to do? If the other side is getting no closer, if every step forward is still and always 2 steps back, and the tunnel is getting darker, not lighter, why must we think any thing is going to bloody change.

Yes, I know I am be negative, and maybe this is just a test of self-something or other. And that my people is why I have not yet given up, because I have put this stupid thought in my head that things maybe, might, possibly, optimistically change for the better. I am looking out for the small glimmer of happiness that might just draw closer, close enough to give some hope.
Or I might be found by some one and given all the chances I need on a sliver platter. But wait, I have someone, and I love that one, and my family loves him, and his family loves me, and we can live with love. Right?

I am the type of person who wants to help people. I AM the person who if I have the money I would give it away. Its funny because some people don’t think that way. Like a couple certain family members of mine. I over heard them talking about what they would do and buy if they won the lotto. They were talking about the types of cars they would get, and how much land they would buy around their already large piece of land. Places they would go, casinos they would hit, happiness they would buy.

Since I was part of the space, I happened to reveal the things I might do if I had that kind of Karma. I said I would send my sister to any college she could get into, set my mother up so she could stop working herself to death, pay off her debts and make it so she can go to see her mother any time she wanted, situate my older sister to a point where she can be comfortable, send my favorite teacher a car, set up Alex’s mother and sister. I would send a money gift to my cousin so he could have the wedding of their dreams. I would send my younger cousin a thousand earrings so she if she loses a single earrings, she will have plenty more. I would pay off my families obligations to the rest of the family so that we will never feel like the low end of the tree.

Oh and I might get to go to school, have a real bed, a couch to sit on own a car that runs all the time and doesn’t leak.

Yea, they then said they would be sure to set up trust funds for all the nieces and nephews. What ever!


If there is one thing the people in that tree are dense about is that the just-world hypothesis is mostly a crock of $#!). My loved ones do not deserve the life-style they have to live in, they did nothing wrong. Why is it that the bad people acquire the more comfortable lives, and the good people have to fight to live healthy. I would love to pile every thing on the real bad person, but a some-what similar thing happened to him.

So it all boils down to the fact that I have anger issues, and a bad temper, I want justice and fairness. And some anti-depressants. Oh wait, I Hate drugs, good thing I can be my own shrink. Which in that case means I still want to live under a rock.

Grandma’s charity for one.

I know I should not be bitter, or even let myself think down this path, but it is a remorseless thought. What my grandmother gave to one, could have been five or more to another. Its like giving one poor (although not poor in my case) person a $50,000 car, when that could have been five $12,500 cars. I do not think people without cars will be picky or selective.
My grandmother has now gotten to the point that she has forgotten she promised my older sister the funds to go to college. So my sister put the tuition on her card. Those funds never came, my sister had to leave school, and pay off a part of a degree she will never have. This information is something few people know. The only reason why I am spilling this secret be cause I am fuming. I know by saying this it may hurt a person I don’t want to hurt. I am sorry, but I cant and wont help that.
Why do I now tell this, when it happened years ago? Because a similar case could have transpired. I am upset because it will be me paying for my younger sister to go to college. Lets hope that the brains she possesses will get her something to help. Before I can do that, I have to be in a place to make that kind of money. My younger sister is intelligent, and so no community college will sustain her.
So this year I will work on my anger, and get myself through college, at least the career I chose is willing to pay my way. I just have to pay for the prerequisites first. Oh yea, the government does help me because I need it that bad.

I feel better.
Blessed Be

It Has Been A Month

Wow a whole month has gone by. I have missed my blog. I am now back.
I will being doing all sorts of things, trying new ideas, and putting it all here.
Wish me luck, or not beacuse I dont really need it to much. Not on everything, just
some things.
I want to be a happy person this year. So I will be releasing my negative Chi.
But wait, I am not unleasing it, I will be putting it into objects and then cleansing
them.
I am excited.
Blessed Be

My Sister is Coming for the Winter

My Sister will be coming up for the season time, I am so excited, she will have Bastain with her. Auntie put out the money for the tickets, and mom got the job of setting them up. Chelsea will be here or a little under a month, which we are all happy about. She will get to stay up here in Louisville with Mom, Jessica, and I when she will have to go down to Elizabethtown where Auntie lives (which is like 2 hours away).

I was hoping she would be here in time from Yule with Alex’s family, in a way she will be here on the day (well night really) that we are all celebrating Winter Solstice. We will be picking Chelsea up before the night is over but after we leave the family’s place. I cant tell any one really how excited I am so get to see Chelsea, I do miss being around her, her witty remarks, her air of know-all, her little laught that only she knows how to make, the smell of her ( although she by now smell different being as she has a baby with its only smell and so I am sure the two smell has merged). Oh yea my memory works better by smell, and I relate things by smell.

Brit will be coming too, he wont get to stay as long, but it will be nice to get him up here to see Louisville, we want Chelsea and Company to move up here. Good luck to us then.

For more info on Yule see next blog.

Last Class

Its that last day of classes, The snow is finally coming down and I am on the upper part of my polar wave. I got my grade for my psychology class, and I got an A. Yea, Baby!
Lets see how I do next semester.

Lauren is Having a Baby

My Best friend Lauren (from 8 years ago) is having a baby. She already has a beautiful little boy, who is looking more and more stunning very picture I get. I have not seen her for almost 7 years. She lives only 778 miles from me, that’s only a 12 hour trip. Yet its just to far, I would love to go see her, I don’t see how though.


I miss her so much, I have to say Lauren was the one and only best friend whom I ever got on with. Sure we had our times, but she was the only person in that world (other than my blood) that I loved more than myself. I have so many happy memories. I know she has long since moved on, and I am not considered her best friend any more, that I miss more than any thing.

I will say that It was suppose to be me having the first kids, but I am very glad she is happy

T.V. Series : Nip/Tuck

This is the weirdest show I have ever watched. And yet it has something that I just cant get over. I mean I love the gory parts, I love the sex, I love the Idea. It IS a soap, yet one that I find I can watch. They are on to the third season, so there is something to watch if starting out.

My Cat Likes to Eat Roses and My Dog Loves Carrots

So Alex brought me some roses, very pretty, smelled wonderful. I put them in a vase and enjoy them a bit. I then give Alex a very nice thank you, which takes quite a bit of time. When I come back to the kitchen I find the vase on its side, water every where, and no roses. At first I think We happened to knock them over with out noticing while…but then I see some leaves on the floor. I look closer, because they really don’t look like leaves if you get real close, they are green bits of plant life to be sure. It occured to me that the cats might have knocked the roses over, and dragged the roses away? Oh those poor roses, to suffer the same fate as these unfortunately mangled leaves.
I look and find a couple crimson puddles by the window. That is all I recover. Well at least I got to cherish them for a few moments. Maybe now the cats poo will smell like roses.
As for my dog, well she has this thing for baby carrots. She loves them, they are like the greatest treats in her world. She gets one and shreds it, there are little pieces of orange things all over the floor. She will then run around in circles eating it, starting on the outer most pieces and working her way in. she does the same thing with her dog food if you scatter it on the floor. Now don’t get funny by the idea, I don’t feed my dog off the floor, its just a game she and I do and she loves it.

My Birth Place

I miss the beaches.
I miss the friends.
I miss the good food.
I miss the salty air.
I miss China Town.
I miss the colours.
I miss the waves.
I miss the ‘toilet bowl’.
I miss the feeling the being there.
I miss the rain.
I miss the green mountains.
I miss the flowers.

I really miss the smell of the island, my home.

But I will tell you I do not miss the people, or the prices, or the schools I went to. I don’t miss how I was treated.
Would I ever want to live there again. No, never. There are other places with their own beauty. I will only go back there once more in my life, and that will be for my grandmother bereavement.

Boggled Mind

My 910am class has been canceled. So I came over to the library to check out the classes for next semester. I really think I need some help with them, I can’t understand the gibberish they have.

I was really looking forward to this class. At least it is raining out side. It’s a nice rain too, very soft and clean. Smells like my heaven.

I need to go see an advisor, think I will go do that.

My mind can’t seem to stay on one thing today. That’s okay, because it’s raining.

A Vest

I am on the hunt of a good vest this year. I have finally gotten to the point where I can spend money on things that are not 98% necessary. So I am looking for something simple, a solid colour. I always thought it would be fun to wear a vest. So if any one knows a good vest any where, let me know.

Alex, The Position of Grill Master

So in the kitchen Alex works there is this position, and that position is Grill Chef. I want to say that this is not an easy position, and the last two people who worked this position could not keep up with the pressure or just could not get the meat to right temp.

Well, Alex is there now, and he rocks that position. The sales have gone up, and the members are happier, much happier. So much they gave Alex another dollar raise, He is making the most here he has ever made. All that and he is happy there, he loves his job, and he has fun.

The Heads.

There are these heads here in Kentucky. They are really neat, I mean, they are something I can so get into. The site for them is:

www.headsupkentucky.org

It’s most out there to send people a message that the heads represents the mind-body connection. The heads also are trying to tell parents to set healthy habits for their children. The heads want to send the message that a lot of your physical health issues can be related to your mental issues, whether you are aware of these issues or not. Same goes for the other way around, being physical unhealthy can keep you from being mentally fit.

I so totally agree with that. There are these five enduring issues psychologists have been interested in, and the mind-body connection is one of them.

I will have more on my psychology reflection.

Golden Rule, yea right.

In responce to this post.

I like, no Love to get dirty, thank you very much. Lets then leave the Golden Rule out of this.
Unappealing to some? No, unappealing to many. I have no idea where these people come from. What their lives have been like, how they were treated as children. But I do know someone who thinks we need closed minded people to have open minded people. don’t get me wrong, I very much believe in a full and strong balance of life. The only problem is there is no balance with these type of people this male corresponds to, not yet. The only propose this male serves is to give people a voice. I mean that in both ways, he give the closed minded and dumb a voice, and he gives people like me an anger enough to want to voice against him. I read it by my choice to see what the “other” side has to throw.

If we didn’t have people like this in the world maybe the world wouldn’t end, maybe it might just keep on spinning like it has been for much longer than his god has been an opinion in any one head.

Now, that “model in all senses” is going way too far. ALL senses??? How so all? I am very sure we could “differentiate between our own ideas of good and bad” with out that males point of view.

This world is very real, but people like this male make our country a nightmare.
I don’t ever want to see another person say this male did not cause harm to me directly, he harms every thing I stand for. He has a lot of hate for me and mine, he just has not met me in person to let me know how much.

I wish people would read more, like real book, books about how things used to be under religious rule, where stupid people in mobs killed. Where if you did not believe in a certain god you were to be thrown down to the deepest hole. How so many people were wiped out because they knew to much. Where women were hunted, raped and then killed because they knew how to heal and males did not. Because the fucken church wanted the power, so they had the women of influence wiped out. Read this book. I wish people would read a few Pearl S. Buck books. ‘The Good Earth’ is the best,. Pearl won the Nobel Prize in literature, the first American woman to do so. Her books are what people should write and read. How about the book, ‘The Ugly American‘, by William J. Lederer, and Burdick, Eugene now that book moves people.

I just don’t understand how someone can say their religion is the best when Most have never studied another single religion and if they have they did so with closed minds believe to only read evil and sinful subjects.

In the end I have voiced how much disagree I with what the male wrote.

Yuck!!!

I have just run into the most revolting blog ever. This idiots blog is so closed minded I am surprised he can even think. I mean this is the type of person that makes America what it is now and keeps it from what it should be. This is the type of person that should be sent off to live in their own little world so that don’t hurt any one in the real world.
Oh here is his site.
http://closedcafeteria.blogspot.com/
I mean gross, I don’t have enough words to say how distasteful this person is to me. I want to try for the fun of it.
Revolting, horrid, nauseating, awful, repulsive, gross, stupid, obtuse, ludicrous, close-minded, narrow-minded, simple-minded, unsophisticated, biased, confined, naive, prejudiced, box head, stupid, stupid, stupid. Please if you can think of any others to match his train of thought, feel very free to post all you want.
I will just say it once more. I very intensely loathe brutes like him.

Hot or Not.

I have just found this site, I can't remember where I found it, might have been off of someone's site.
I have a link here...
http://www.hotornot.com/r/?eid=EUK8NZH&key=VCX
yea so tell me what you think.

Stupid Me?!?

I love my psychology class, the teacher rocks. I don’t feel so unintelligent there. I guess I put most of the negative thoughts in my head that really slow me down. I just don’t see what every one else perceives. The only thing I can give my self that is “smart” is that I don’t want to be stupid. Sure that could be seen as intelligent, but I just don’t feel it, or see it, or even know how to recognize it.
I could say that being lazy makes a person stupid, if you don’t want to make the effort to improve your mind. But then for some people it is difficult to gain knowledge, to remember. What makes a person smarter? Someone who learns fast, or someone who learns slowly, yet takes the time to learn?
I want to be smart, I want to know matters and topics and subjects, and think at a higher level. I want to know how to ask really good questions. So what much I do?
Now, I can whine about it or I can do something. I think do.

She's Pissed

Mother Nature is very angry. Some one has pissed her off. And just wait, she is just getting started. I wish people would treat our home and gifts she gives us with a little more respect.